One last post for Remembrance Sunday (and Remembrance day) to share the ‘Before They Were Fallen’ project in honour of all the families who took part. Thank you for sharing your stories of courage, strength and sadness and for everyone’s support during the making, publishing and exhibiting.
In October 2014, British troops finally withdrew from Afghanistan.
453 soldiers lost their lives during the thirteen-year campaign and over that time we, as a nation, became used to the faces of the fallen flashing up on our screens and in our newspapers; images of their coffins being carried from planes and through towns lined with mourners. For the vast majority of us, those faces will now have faded in our consciousness, but for the families and friends of those Fallen, there is no fading and no forgetting.
The work shown here, funded by the Arts Council and published in the Guardian Weekend , with interviews by Katy Regan represents a body of work produced as an exhibition and Touring show, see below for dates .

TONI O’DONNELL is the widow of Warrant Officer Class 2 Gary ‘Gaz’ O’Donnell GM & Bar from 11 Explosive Ordnance Disposal Regiment Royal Logistic Corps, who was killed on Wednesday 10 September 2008, in Helmand province. He was 40.
Before: “Photograph of Gary and myself taken at the christening of our eldest child, Aidan. A very happy day full of friends, family and love, taken on 26th November 2000 at Kineton Army Barrracks in Warwickshire.”
After: Recreated At home in Warwickshire, 15/04/2015.
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“A few weeks after Gary’s body came back, I got his things in a box. That was really tough, because it smelt of him, it was him. He used to send for these ‘Aussie bum pants’ from Australia which were bright colours – typical of Gary because he was such an extrovert and that was very emotional because it was so Gary, you know, it was so him. “

HELENA TYM AND ROBIN THATCHER from Caversham, Berkshire, are the parents of Rifleman Cyrus Thatcher serving in 2nd Battalion The Rifles who was killed on June 2nd, 2009, in an explosion whilst on patrol in Helmand province. He was 19.
PHOTO CAPTION
Before: (Robin) “That smile of yours might work for your mum”: Prom Night, May 2006; Helena, Robin and Cyrus at home in Reading.
After: At home in Reading, 16/07/2015
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”We haven’t taken many photographs since Cyrus was killed, because all we see, when we look at them, is the one face that isn’t there. That’s why, when we were approached about this project, we wanted to do it, because it conveyed exactly how we feel. There is this space all the time, and I feel it very physically, so to be able to show it in a photograph is really important.”

ROSEMARY DAY from Comber, Northern Ireland, lost her daughter, Corporal Channing Day, serving in 3 Medical Regiment, when she was killed on patrol in Helmand, on October 24th 2012
Before: ”Our last mummy Channing cuddles before leaving for Afghan” Rosemary and Channing at home in Comber, Northern Ireland, 2012.
After: Recreated in the same location 01/09/2015
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“I am sitting at home maybe eating my dinner and my daughter is under fire and you cant process that in your head that this wee girl that you brought up and protected all those years is out there fighting… in a compound under fire from the Taliban”

MARTIN HARRISON from Watford, Hertfordshire lost his son, Corporal Chris Harrison, 26, serving in 40 Commando, the Royal Marines when he was killed in an explosion in Sangin, on May 9th 2010.
PHOTO CAPTION
Before: “Chris and Dad, Christmas 1999 ‘The Matrix look’ present“
After: Recreated at home in Watford, 07/08/2015
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“He loved the film The Matrix and wanted a full-length leather coat but we couldn’t quite stretch to that- so we got him this! It used to make us laugh that he would walk around in it virtually all day long.”

CORBIN MACKIN from Plymouth lost his brother, Travis Mackin, 22, who was serving in 45 Commando, the Royal Marines, when he was killed in an explosion on January 11th 2009 in the Kajaki area of Afghanistan. At the time of Travis’ death, Corbin was also serving in 1st Battalion the rifles and deployed in the same operation in Helmand.
1. Before: Corbin and Travis photographed in Cyprus
After: Recreated in Blackpool Sands, Devon, 30/07/15.
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“The battle doesn’t end when you get back from Afghanistan. People can never understand what you’ve been through.”

NIKKI SCOTT from Walpole St Andrews, Norfolk, lost her husband Corporal Lee Scott, from the 2nd Royal Tank regiment, when the vehicle he was on was blown up by an IED. He was 26.
PHOTO CAPTION
Before: 2nd February 2008. All Saints Church, North Wootton, King’s Lynn, Norfolk. “Just Married! Amazing moment of the day that I shall cherish forever. Mr & Mrs Scott.”
After: Same location, Nikki with their children, Kai and Brooke
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“The strangest thing was being told this horrendous thing had happened, that he wouldn’t be coming home and yet, there was no evidence of Lee: no coffee cup from the morning, no toothbrush – it was like he was still on tour.”

ANNE LINLEY from Bournville, West Midlands, lost her son, Sergeant Brett Linley GM when he was killed whilst trying to deactivate a bomb in Afghanistan on July 17th 2010. Sergeant Linley from the 11 Explosive Ordnance Disposal Regiment, Royal Logistic Corps. He was 29.
PHOTO CAPTIONS
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Before:, “Boxing day walk with George, (husband) Brett and myself.” Hanbury Hall, Worcestershire, circa 1994.
After: Same location 06/02/2015
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“Brett was into anything if it was alive; he absolutely loved wildlife. I’ve never seen anybody pick up a bee and thank it for doing its work before.”

RACHEL MURPHY from Bristol, is the widow of Lance Corporal John Murphy who served in the Royal Army Veterinary Corps and after 22 years in the military, took his own life in January 2007, leaving Rachel and their two children; Emily and Steven, who were aged 2 and 3 at the time.
Before: “The last photo of all of us in happier times” Rachel, John and their children, Emily and Steven at home in Bristol, November 2006.
After: At home in Bristol. 10/5/15
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“When John was clearly unwell, I was saying you really need to go and see someone and he was saying ‘I don’t need no head doctor, what will people think? …. From the moment you enter the army you are bred to be a fighting machine, to show huge personal courage in the face of adversity. Those are all wonderful attributes but at the same time they can also be detrimental to the human psyche because the brain isn’t wired to cope with that amount of stress. “

STEVE BARNSDALE from Tring, in Hertfordshire lost his son, Corporal David Barnsdale, serving in the 33 Engineer Regiment (Explosive Ordnance Disposal) when he was killed by an IED on 19th October 2010.
Before: “Christmas, 2004 at our home in Tring, just prior to David being transferred to be based in Germany.”
After: Same location 11/02/2015
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“One of the last things I said to him was, ‘a speeding fine’s come through in the post’. He was terrible for getting parking and speeding fines, never seemed to know how it worked.”

CAROLINE MUNDAY from Coleshill, Worcestershire, lost her son, Trooper James Munday, serving in the Household Cavalry Regiment when he was killed driving a jackal, in Helmand Province, Afghanistan on 15th October 2008. He was 21.
Before: Caroline and her son James at Caroline’s parents’ house, April 2005, Coleshill, Warwickshire.
After: Same location, April 2013.
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“I was on my knees in the car park, screaming. Then this bubble just formed around me, I picked myself up and walked back inside and said to the security guard, ‘I’ve just found out that my son has been killed in Afghanistan’, I need to go back into the building.”

EMMA BETTS, from Nottingham lost her brother, Private James Prosser, a warrior infantry vehicle driver serving in 2nd battalion the Royal Welsh, when he was killed as a result of an explosion in Helmand, Afghanistan on September 27th, 2009. He was 21.
Before: “Brotherly and sisterly fun playing Barbies” Caerphilly, Wales, July 1992.
After: Same location 07/04/2013.
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“I miss my little brother: I just miss him being around. It was strange going back to that house in Caerphilly for the photo, because I hadn’t been in fifteen years and everything felt smaller and on the wall behind us are the two, white, football posts that were painted on, and that we used to play against when we were little. It made me nostalgic for that time, when life was simple… As I get older, I get sadder, I get angrier. I miss him more”

SARAH ADAMS from Cwmbran in Wales lost her son, Private James Prosser, a warrior infantry vehicle driver serving in the 2nd Battalion the Royal Welsh when he was killed as a result of an explosion in Helmand, Afghanistan on September 27th, 2009. He was 21.
Before: Sarah and James at Ashbridge Inn, Cwmbran, April 2009
“A precious hug from James … How I wish I could have one now.”
After: Same location, 4/4/15
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“When James was little, he liked to dress up as a super-hero. One of my most vivid memories is of James dressed as Batman, standing on a wall in the back garden. I was looking at him from the kitchen window and he was going ‘Mummy, I can fly!’ and I’m trying to say ‘no you can’t’ but then he did, and it was a trip to A&E again. There was nothing he wouldn’t attempt.”

BRENDA HALE, from Northern Ireland, is the widow of Captain Mark Hale, of 2nd Battalion the Rifles who was 42 when he was killed in an explosion whilst on patrol in Sangin on August 13th 2009.
PHOTO CAPTION
Before: “Me and my man, Paris, 2008” BH
After: Same location 26/07/2015.
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“He told me he loved me in his third letter. I was reading it on a train to Belfast and I went ’yippee!’ and everyone on the train turned and looked and I was like ‘he loves me!’ it felt like I’d drunk a bottle of champagne – everything was just going pop.”

AMY LAWRENCE is the widow of Trooper Phillip Lawrence, originally from Birkenhead, the Wirral. Trooper Lawrence served in the Light Dragoons (based in Norfolk) and was killed on July 27th, 2009 in Helmand when the vehicle he was driving was in an explosion. He was 22.
Before: “First family photo” (Amy, Phillip and Jess) January 2009, Jess three months old. AL
After: Amy and Jess, recreated in Norwich, 9/04/2015.
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“…the regiment Welfare Officer had stayed on the barracks the night before and had looked over at my house with no lights on and thought, I’ve got to break that poor girl’s heart tomorrow.”
The Exhibition
Having been exhibited at Four Corners Gallery in September The exhibition continues in Oriel Colwyn Gallery, North Wales, November 5th to December the 5th 2015 (with a special viewing arranged for Remembrance day) and FOTOPACE Gallery, fife Scotland, Monday 18th January – Saturday 27th February, 2016
Please check here for further news , and email Louis quail and Katy Regan if you are interested in showing the work or becoming a contributor.
Synopsis Continued
Before They Were Fallen deals with remembrance. Through intimate photographs and powerful testimonies this project honours the sacrifice of the soldiers, but also that of those left behind to deal with their loss.
The central concept of the work is the recreation of a family snap. The pair of pictures; the original (before they were fallen) and the recreation, which shows a space where the soldier should be, together challenge the viewer to compare the past to the present and the reality of their absence.
This approach to the image alongside sensitive interviews of each participant by journalist and author Katy Regan, offers an alternative to traditional remembrance, remembering soldiers as individuals; somebody’s son, daughter, father, husband, brother or comrade.
A few participants were also invited to nominate several often ordinary objects that had particular resonance for them in connection to their ‘fallen’ loved ones. Using large format photography, the aim was to reveal the items afresh drawing attention to their now extraordinary significance as artefacts.
Traditional remembrance is inevitably narrow in its scope but broad in its brush; dealing as it does with the valour and courage of the fallen soldiers from several wars, and seeking to include the whole nation. Its success in creating this national platform is its weakness, in that the nature of the individual soldier and sacrifice of the families can sometimes be lost in the scale of the event.
In Before They Were Fallen, I wanted to confront the grief and sacrifice of the friends and families head on, and in doing so give them a voice and the opportunity to remember their fallen soldier in a public space, narrowing the distance between their intimate personal memories and our collective act of remembrance.
The final intention behind the work is to collate the material gathered for the project into an archive featuring the images and first person testimonies of each individual photographed. The hope was that it would be a fitting legacy to the fallen soldiers but also a manifestation of the emotional and physical impact felt by the families involved.
In creating this project I have considered the many First World War commemorations and exhibitions, each a reminder of the devastation of the Great War. I see the work as part of this tradition of documentation and reflection on war, which is essential in reducing the call to arms.
The project is dedicated to the 453 British soldiers and all those who lost their lives as a result of the war in Afghanistan; as well as the families and loved ones they left behind.
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